within.

i'm deeply deeply deeply mesmorised and touched all the way down with this song! it's so beautiful. About braving through odds, struggles and pain.

And another of her song, Our Hope Endures, it says,

Walk a mile with the woman whose body is torn; With illness, but she marches on.

amazing.

if you know me well, you will know how i am feeling now. The words really speak to my heart.

runaway bride.

i got attracted to this picture when i first saw it.
i don't know, but this picture speaks alot.

Is marriage like a race between a couple?
hahaha just a random thought.

anyway today wasn't a supposedly good day for me.
several reasons but shall not list.
i've already got over them anyway.

recently, i read this out from a friend's personal message and it says,

Some thinks holding on is making one strong; sometimes it's letting go.

impactful yeah.

everybody are submerged in the examination spirit, or should i say, drowned.
i mean, it's so obvious everyone is stressed about every little thing, worried, anxious, any word to describe someone under distress.

i am like no other.

and i start to wonder, if this is what they call competition?
fighting for higher grades, then fighting for better university choices, and what next, superiority?

everybody in school are cranky, restless, moody, just like walking zombies.
exam fever so to speak.
this feeling is terrible. the atmosphere is so stagnent.
and sometimes, you just feel like your efforts to make the people around you happy are wasted.

hey, i am not complaing here or anything.
just felt like expressing heart-felt thoughts =)
no specific persona. just in general.

alright, tomorrow will be a better day!
tuesday, wednesday, thursday, friday, saturday, sunday, take it all Jesus(:

sometimes when someone says she is alright, she actually wants someone to look right into her eyes and say tell the truth.

if i say i'm alright, it doesn't mean i am really fine.
i am human and i am not that happy and cheery and positive all the time agree? ;)
and if you think i'm strong enough to comfort myself and keep positive thoughts, honestly i can't.
people tell me, "you can do it!", "press on!", "jiayou!", "don't worry!", "stay strong!", all these i know.
it's just another kind reminder.

what everybody needs i feel, is a shoulder to cry on.

so now, i shall make it a point to be more interested and concerned for the people around me.
don't be surprised if i'd out of the blue ask you, "are things at home are okay?"

=)

i need someone too.

this week is a busy busy week. occupied to its brim.
but it's the studying that is reigning over my life now.

i know it's funny but i am feeling more stressed than last year during the olevels period!
well, this shows how eager i want to get promoted to j2 ;)

i am sooo blessed by Pastor Kong's sermon today! so so impactful.
LOYALTY IS STRENGTH.
stay committed guys!! in all aspects of your life.

i havebeen studying with a couple of friends this week and surprizingly, it isn't all that bad.
at least some effort to dicipline and control oneself from digressing was seen!(:
and yes finally, i have compiled and neatened the written report for pw!
thanks mates for your cooperation. couldnt have done it without you.

school's reopening in 1 day's time! i don't know if i should smile or cry!
i miss my class and my friends. and studying and playing in school.
but it just means life is getting tougher cause promos are hereeee!!!
this is life huh.
up and down. up and down. merry and sorrow!
but all things come to a good end. Thank God.

oh man guess what, my estate is under some repair work and renovation now. i think they are repainting!! i'm excited!
gotta have tolerance for the inconveniece that it's causing for now(:

yay mummy is bringing me to karaoke tomorrow!
haha she said she had some good lobang.
oh noo i hope it wouldnt be awkward i havent exactly sing to my parents before.
dont know why but i feel more comfortable singing to my friends, especially you know who. best singing buddies!!

alright have a good rest world!
i love you.

mad rush.

studying at the library today was surprizingly condusive!
together with michelle, planned to hit the books at macs but got chased out :P
okay not chased out, but asked to leave.
because the management said there're lots of customers during that hour.
yea kinda our fault.
but after we left, we realised we were still holding on to our drinks.
haha and michelle claimed it's a customer's right to stay put since we still had out drinks.
hehe ah well.

then we head on to the library which was not a bad idea actually.
because we tend to be more diciplined in studying.
can't talk that much you see... =)

i'm glad i managed to do some math and chem revision.
hahaha and due to sheer boredom, we took blank pieces of paper and drew each other!
like real still life drawings of ourselves.
it was pretty weird cause we had to stare at each other while we drew.
awkward.
but awkwardness turned into fun!! really!

tomorrow is friday already!
and very soon, school is reopening for TERM 4. the horrible TERM 4 is here!!!
hmmm and i'm thinking if i should say TGIF.

yes i should.
TGIF!
Thank God for and in all things!

and i conclude that time passes super fast when you're either studying hard or enjoying youself.

i wonder if i'm half-dead.
oh no no, i mean half-alive =)

EVERYBODY! KEEP GOING!
^.^

joy

today i shall upload photos to brighten up by otherwise gloomy day.
so to begin, let me introduce, 09S15. my class.

service with mavis, felicia and joey on a sunday morning.

best COC, friend and sister =)

time off with secondary school friends on teachers' day.

love you all with all my heart.

oh yea before i go,

HAPPY 090909 EVERYBODY!

to all muggers out there, focus and have faith.

with you.

great song.

let's be contented with what we have and stop thinking about how much the world owes us.
this is happiness.

oh yeah, i found out one thing about myself today,
I LOVE SURPRISES!!
<3

FEAR NOT.

this week seemed too long.
three days of official school days but it felt like a week's long of school.

yay school hols are here! for ONE WEEK.
not to play, but for intense revision!
no more fooling around, it's time to get serious.
i will try ;) hehe.

PW meeting over at my house on friday was pretty good.
i mean, at least we did the organizing, citing and editing of our written report(:
now gotta work on substantiation of ideas.
and once again, it was a fine talk with eme and xx.
haha hq, don't worry. you're not forgotten.
plus we didn't talk about emo stuff.
stop your obsession for emo talks la! hahaha

ytd's service was just mind-blowing!
3 key attitudes i have learnt:
1) Attitude of repentence
2) Attitude of faith
3) Attitude to bear fruit

and this is really not jsut a coincidence because days ago i have been thinking about bearing fruit.
how cool is that.

anyway i've been thinking about this.
since i'm going for a school trip to medan at the end of the year, if i don't work hard for promos now, i won't be able to enjoy myself there right. because i will feel guilty and pretty much uneasy if i did screw up. (touch wood)
so i will give my all.
so while i'm enjoying myself after promos, i am TRULY enjoying myself.
with no worries, no nothing.

yes! i'm motivated!!
Thank God.

I CAN'T WAIT FOR 090909!
it's a special day!

=)

right now, i've just completed some school survey in the comp lab.
thinking that i should probably just write a post to kill time. hehehe
i'm excited because my pw group is coming over to my place later!
yay!
it's gonna be fruitful i hope!

dancing!

days are passing in a blink of an eye.
it seems like just yesterday i came into jc.
and now, promos are just around the corner.
is it because there's too little time?
or is it because we are wasting time away?

these few days, i am pretty happy. i feel lighter because my heart is lifted!
but my school bag is getting heavier.
hm..let's take it as a reminder that i must focus and study hard for promos!
though my shoulder is aching. and my old ailment..sigh.
gettin' frail. hahaha!
count me in if you need a buddy to exercise!

okay i want to wander off to dreamland now.

thought of the day: BEAR FRUITS.