this woman, is just amazing.

celine dion, one of the best singers i know.

If things don't change, I will make it change.

bond

The following are lessons i've learnt in my life.
To someone else, it's nothing really.
But to me, because it's my life, it's something very very significant.
because i am feeling alot for it.
what may appear small to you may appear huge to someone else.

To sum it all, this is what i've learnt:

1) Love and sacrifice is never convenient. Did you realise that you have to go through leaps and bounds to prove that your love is true for someone?
2) My word measures my character. Have you been keeping to your promises? Are you a man of integrity, a man of your word?
3) My word is the expression of my nature. If you speak vulgarities, it just simply shows you are a vulgar person.
4) I know i'm just wasting time if i don't do something worthy about my life.
5) Sometimes, I don't need to pretend to be strong when i'm not.
6) Having a relationship with someone is a heavy responsibility, but it tests your love for the person.
7) It's not about the outward, but the inward.
8) If things don't work out, it's okay if you sit down, emo and think for awhile, but get back up and do something about it.
9) Standing united is falling when someone falls, and getting up together again.
10) I know that saying "I'll be there for you" without actually being there is just being superficial.


This is my word and promise to you, even if I'm not physically there, trust me that I'll be praying for you.

I know i've mentioned above, but i really feel the need to emphasize this again, to myself and to all.

YOUR WORD MEASURES YOUR CHARACTER.

go fulfil your convictions and promises you've made!
stop living with empty promises!

Whoever can be trusted with very little can also be trusted with much. and whoever is dishonest with very little will also be dishonest with much.

-Luke 16:10-

boom or doom?

THE DAY IS HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
no, Jesus is not coming yet.
i mean, promotional examinations are finally here.
just wanna get it over and done with.
but of course, to do well too ;)

you must be wondering why i am blogging at a time like this? when my first paper is up in about 8 hours' time..hah can't help but to say a few words before moving on to fight the good fight!

jiejie was really nice to encourage me and played a couple of songs on the guitar(:
it really did calm my nerves so thank you so much sistaaa!
i am truly blessed.

my back have been awfully pain these past weeks.
hurts so much. and it becomes numb once in awhile.
terrible sensation from my shoulders to my spine. and all the way down to my legs.
i thought it was no biggie, but unfortunately, it's really a big biggie.
i'm really scared.
i better stop carrying heavy bags to school. it's not doing any good huh.

okay forget about that, now i just hope and pray that tomorrow's paper and subsequent papers to be easy peasy lemmon squeezy please(:
2 weeks of torture, sure i can make it through.
and many weeks of freedom thereafter, it's a pretty good deal actually.
hehe.

i am doing alot of thinking lately and i do know in my heart that i am concious when i think.
i had a terrible misunderstanding about a friend of mine recently.
and in my mind, it's like disaster.
but later i found out, hey it's nothing really but a silly misunderstanding.
and really, i realised that what i look is really not what i see.
same goes for your ears, what you hear may not be what you listen.

i think having problems in life is a joyful thing!
without being broken and torned occasionally, no love can actually mend those hurts.
only with broken-ness, love can come forth.
if you're already happy and loved, how much more love do you need?
1 litre? 2 litres?
but when you're shagged and hurt, how much love do you lack?
as much as you can get right!

well, that's my example!

alright, time to go!
best wishes and all the very best fellow muggers!
i'm keeping my faith.

So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. (2 Corinthians 4:18)

labour

THREE DAYS OF PROJECT WORK.
Thank God i'm a survivor.
though with occassional headaches and heartburns, the rest of the time was pure joy to score well.

tell you something funny, i realised the busier i get, the more things i wanna do!
as promos get nearer, i'm like finding more things for myself to do!
which is apparently quite silly because people try to cut down on stuff to do when they have more to do isn't it? but this isn't the case for me, strangely.

i'm currently reading The Five People You Meet In Heaven by Mitch Albom.
after taking a fancy to Tuesdays with Morrie last december.
heehee i like his books!!

And i just bought GP and Economics Essay books today.
planning to read one essay every night before i go to bed.
hopefully i stick to my resolution.

On top of all these books, I want to read one very important book; The Bible.

yeah yeah i'm a bookworm, surprisingly ;)

oh well, If you want a rainbow, you must go through the rain.

And if i search all the world, I will never find a love like Yours.

This is my life experience.

Sometimes you can't see God's hand, He's telling you, Come and find My Heart.

Life's tribulations, are they merely coincidental? i say not.

I believe God is the One who set all this up, prepared for this situation to befall upon me, to build up my faith. God allows bad things to happen to put a steel on your back to make you stronger, to stand firm.

When things happen in the most unexpected circumstances, you feel angry, disappointed and burdened, don't complain, but move in the power of faith.

I have learnt to build my life on three things:

Gift, Strength and Revelation.

Gift refers to spiritual grace.

Ting once told me that i have the gift of mercy and compassion.

and i didn't really thought how precious that Gift was. Now i know.

I will treasure that Gift and use it wisely.

Strength means natural abilities and talents!

everyone has a strength. if you don't know, you simply haven't discover it yet!

and if you know your strength, unleash it and impact the world with it!

Revelation means what God has spoken to you.

It's the Calling.

Mine was pretty significant.

It was the calling for me to go to JJC.

strange?

I put first choice, and i got it.

I tried for Council, and i got in.

I tried for Choir, and i am in.

defnitely not a coincidence.

and to think of it, i am actually developing my potential.

i was in girl guides in secondary school and held a rank to lead and guide people.

now that i'm in council, i'm actually further sharpening myself to improve and be a better leader.

as for choir, i'm working on my strength, and that's singing.

Really, i am amazed by how God can transform me into the person i am today.

the achievements and confidence i have gained in this school is tremendous and i know it's really a blessing because if maybe, i scored better and enter into a better college in terms of an academically stronger and highly reputable school, i wouldn't be the person you know.

and i'm not talking about the measurable achievements, but something greater than that!

Truly, in times of crisis, God wants you to fixed your eyes on Him.

And not on your problems.

I am extremely thankful and grateful for God's mercy upon my life.

It's because of His Mercy, I can then be merciful.

yesterday's service was phenomenal!

hot tears streamed down my cheeks, over and over again when i got touched by His presence and His love. The feeling is so tangible.

Some say, "There's no such thing as a God!" "You must be mad!" "It's just another religion!"

Firstly, it's because you haven't actually experience the powerful and true touch from God in His House, that's the reason why you doubt.

But i tell you, His love is so great, so great, even greater than every problem in this world!

That's why Christians pray alot, we seek refuge in Him and cast everything on Him.

We yearn to follow the character traits of Jesus of forgiveness, humility, kindness and selflessness.

And no, Christianity is not a religion. It's a relationship.

I thank God for this path He has created for me.

One that is narrow and one that is difficult to walk.

But when i have stood the test, the Glory of God will be revealed!

a big shout of Amen to that!

Life especially in Singapore is incredibly fast-paced.

When was the last time you had some quiet time, some peaceful moments to listen attentively to the birds singing outside your window?

And when was the last time you could take a stroll by the park to admire God's work of nature?

Simplicities in life that most failed to capture.

this is a good reflection moment for me too.

I can't help but to quote William Shakespeare now.
He wrote in A Midsummer Night's Dream, "The course of true love never did run smooth."

last year when i took my olevels, studying this book for literature, it didn't occur to me how strong this sentence was.
True love is tested through tears, pain and hardship.
never smooth-sailing.

some tell me they don't believe in true love.
they think it's non-existent! it's not possible!

i guess it's subjective. it depends on your own personal definition of it(:

my mum's close friend's dad passed away peacefully yesterday.
i was pretty saddened because my mum's friend is someone i love and am close to.

and then, i got reminded of a book, Tuesdays with Morrie.
That wise old man, strong-willed even though his days were numbered.
He said one powerful statement that is rooted to my heart since last year when i read it!
When you learn how to die, you learn how to live.

I need Wisdom.

awesome song!
different versions by various singers, but i personally like Natalie Grant's. enjoy!

energy-drained week.

school today was pretty alright. because physics lesson was cancelled.

and chem lesson was pushed forward meaning early dismissal.
so went with 7 other friends to nearby macs to have lunch.

bonded a little, and saw some embarrassing moments. haha!

shall not mention..for the sake of personal privacy.

went back to school to study after lunch(:

but main purpose was to wait for michelle so we can go home together.

had a good laugh at several Youtube videos for a slight chill before getting the books out.

studied chem with odelia and rachel(:

and it was a pretty good studying session with them, with music and our 'tutor', jt who insists on hanging around our table.. haha.

oh yes, let me share something new about myself that i've learnt from rachel and odelia!

heeheehee :P

they said when i'm embarrassed, i like to adjust my specs, you know, like putting my specs to a comfortable position on my nose. like the sophisticated look. O.O

but it's a natural reaction kind of thing. haha.

and they can't stop laughing about it!!

tomorrow gotta go back to school for pw meeting.

7 30am!!

school time =.=

no worries hq, haha i will push myself to wake up and be refreshed!

i'll do anything for pw! just to ACE it mann!

have a good rest world! it's friday!

the weekend is here!!

I'm extremely tired but I can't sleep even though i'm in bed now.
I just had my quiet time and I prayed to God for many things!
trust that He has answered my prayers.

i'm composing another song of my own recently.
i hope it turns out good ;)

the song title: Can I Be
yeap got the words ready but not so much of the music yet.
i like writing songs!
it expresses most my deepest feelings and that's what makes everything seem so true, so candid, so transparent.

today i felt pain again. am i getting weaker each day?
i'm afraid one day when i wake, i can no longer move.
the bones are breaking apart. the tissues are tearing. the muscles are aching.
sounds terrible.
please heal.

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.