selfless sacrifices are worth because we live to love.

I have to make an extremely important decision very soon.
And this probably the main reason why i'm stressing out these days.
Oh God.
Really hope this will come to pass soon :)

It occurred to me lately that love really do transcends all boundaries!
The feeling of caring for the ones you love, helping them when a need arises and loving them despite of our differences is really a great great feeling.
Even occasional how are yous are simple gestures of your concern for somebody.
I think it's really not that difficult to be nice :)
It's just a matter of choosing to be others-centered or self-centered person.

Have been praying for three good friends of mine in particular again and again. For breakthroughs in their health and studies.
I believe my prayers are answered :)

Putting heart into the things I do, that's when i see hope, i keep faith, and i feel love.

I really see HOPE in chemistry!
so glad for this tuition! regardless of the inconvenience. It's the WILL like what mr chong said :)

My schedule is really so tight and busy, besides studies and schoolwork, there's still council stuff, choir events, church, family time, friends, tuition, important frequent phone calls, time to catch up with friends, make time to meet people's needs, heal their hurts and just to give a smile, and thankfully, just a tiny bit of time for myself to relax.
None of the above shall be neglected.

I guess that's my life for now :)

Just when you think giving up is the only way out, but you still made it through.

My heart broke for a friend today.

Oh God, i lift her up into your loving hands. Heal her heart.

No such thing as endless storms.

On saturday, i experienced something i always believed in but never actually witness or experience before.
Giving kindness and kindness given back to you.

I was on my way home on the train and found an empty seat.
A crippled and haggard old man walked in, supposedly finding a seat.
So, the only right thing to do is to give up my seat for him.
He sincerely said thank you to me.
I smiled.
Then, at cityhall, many passengers alighted so there were many available seats.
And he shouted out to me that there are seats over there and continuously pointed at all the empty seats.
He wanted me to have a seat :)
Wow, we are merely strangers.
And there is this old and haggard man, kindly informing me that there are seats or say, inviting me to take a seat on any of the available seats.
I was really grateful and touched.

Oh man, just when i was just doing what is common sensically right to give up your seat to those who need it more, with no condition whatsoever, the very thing i know is that the kindness is given back to me.
I am truly blessed by this experience!
Now, no longer do i believe, but i know that when you give, it will be given back to you.
The first step is still to give yeah :)

J2 life is starting to heat up but still, equally enjoyable.
I am starting to like maths once again because of our new teacher, who teaches well enough for me to understand and learn something after the lesson.
I am trying to love chemistry even more as i do my consistent revision.
I am still trying to focus more on physics and not take it for granted that it's manageable. The truth is, physics will be tough unless you grasp the concepts well.
And I never stopped loving economics!!!

I'm really trusting God for breakthroughs!
whether if storms rise in the process, the glory at the end of the storm is always a clear sky once again, sometimes even rainbows appear :)

Right, so i've just received last minute news that i've got to go back to school tomorrow for a briefing for the info session that JJ is organsing on saturday.
Ahh and guess what, i'm selected to help out at the IDP booth..
and i highly suspect it's because i joined Project SMILE and so i can be more informative during the info session (???)

anyway, i do hope my time spent for the briefings and the actual event will be worthwhile. Because i have seriously more important things to do.
in any case, i still believe that opportunities are disguised as small tasks, and also in inconveniences. So, even though this event may be inconvenient for me, but who knows, something great might happen.

yesterday all the councillors had to go for a meeting with the new principal. Everybody was kinda anticipating what kind of person she'll be, like whether she'll be as scary as what the rumours describe her to be. Fortunately no.
I like her!
She seems very concerned for the welfare of the students and she kept asking for feedback and improvements that can be made with JJ's resources, facilities etc.
She speaks well and remained composed throughout the entire meeting.
yup, so i believe she'll lead the college well la :)

later on, hannqian and i went to meet emelia and shihan for lunch and study. It was soooo nice to see emelia after such a long time! hahaha and we managed to catch up a little.
went to the library to study thereafter. Shared and exchanged good music too :)
i loveeee music! it can really make me extremely happy!!!

yeah! and later in the night, i talked to michelle on the phone about random stuff and hot breaking news that i know..haha and msn chat with rachel too!

wow i feel so contented.

ahgong just got discharged! i'm glad he's able to go home now :) thank God.

Today i went back to school for chem consultation which was really a wasted trip.
Met up with shihan for breakfast at the hawker nearby and i was really glad i got to catch up with her :D seems like i'm not the only one out of the house most of the time!
Ms Elvina arranged to meet me at 11am but apparently, she had some meeting and she only came to us at 1230pm...
though i did do corrections for my worksheets and all, but still, i thought it was a session whereby i can ask her questions, i mean at least something more productive. but...well, i guess she has her reasons.
but on a happy note, i got to chitchat with shihan :)
shared music and talked about random stuff, stuff about our class...and how much we miss 09S15, like really alot!!!

oh man, i'd better stop thinking that i have very little homework, either that or i have alot of time to spare.
tests, work, tests, work, Alevels!!!
okay, once in awhile, i have to scare myself like that, at least to ensure i know that time waits for no man, especially lazy man.

sigh, i don't want to be lazy really. just that i really have alot of things to handle and think about.
sometimes i feel that my mind is so so so very much occupied that by any chance i see a math question, it irks me.
haha okay,
...
...
(just got self-motivated somehow)

yay :) i feel more determined now.

Anyway, i feel like shouting out that i love my sister alot alot alot!
i don't know, i feel touched by the simple things she does for me, and even the time she will occasionally come to my room to talk to me, to play the guitar and sing some songs for me and most of the time, we'll end up singing lots of songs together!

i like the way we harmonise when we sing songs together. i like the way she plays the guitar with so much enthusiasm. i like the treats she buys for me. i like it when she tells me what's going on in her life. i like the way when she scolds me for not eating a meal. i like the way she throws a tantrum when i (sorta) disturb her. i like it when she's there for me when i know i can't tell my parents about certain things. i like it when she recommends nice songs to me. i like it when she is so friendly towards my friends.

i like my sister for many things, but i love her with all of my heart because i know she is not by any coincidence my sister, my blood sister, my caring and loving yet sometimes annoying sister.

for those who have a sibling, sometimes you might feel so annoyed or even hurt by your kin, and you might even say things like 'i don't need you' or 'i'd rather not have you because i'm better of alone as a single child', but the truth is, one day you'll still come back to the arms of your sister or brother. It's just a special thing in the blood...kinship :)

So if you are guilty of constantly quarelling with your sibling (like now, yes i am talking about you), i'm sure when you guys look back at the immaturity you once had when you're older, it's then you start treasuring. Better to start early!

PS: I was talking about myself too ;)

I watched Bodyguards&Assassins a few days ago with ting and teen. Surprisingly, a good show(:
Quite a depressing show actually. With all the good people sacrificing their lives so as to protect 400million other people. True heroes!

My 1st January 2010 didn't start well, or rather, it didn't start as good as i expected.
Ahgong got admitted to the hospital due to a bad fall on his head. Thank God his condition is stable now, however with stitches on his wound and occasional blurness..
my heart aches for him...

A friend of mine called me just now and she told me that she wants to update me about her life. thought it was quite funny that she wanted to 'update me'.
occasionally i thank God for such people! man, they actually took the initiative to call me to update me about their life and share how they have been lately and all!

Faiqa is leaving for Malaysia tomorrow permanently ):
as saddened as i am by that fact, i really pray hard that she will live well over there..
i'll remember you!

:)

Rejoice!

Every year i make resolutions, so there's no exception for 2010.
I like making resolutions because i want something to look forward to improve and acheive every year. It makes a new year really a new beginning :)

Jo's new year resolutions:

1. Able to serve my family in more ways and foster stronger bonds with dad, mum and sister
2. Lend a helping hand and listening ear to anybody at anytime
3. Discipline, patience and positivity in my studies
4. Healing for my physical health
5. Touch more lives and mend more hurts

And faithfully, i will lead my life well.
I am officially in J2! oh my, things will get pretty serious this year. No slacking, but striving!

Once again, i've got to get used to writing '2010' instead of '2009' when writing the dates on my schoolwork..
sometimes, it really tests how much i'm able to let go of 2009.

Therefore I do not run like a man running aimlessly; I do not fight like a man beating the air.

-1 Corinthians 8:26-

Thank you, faithful servant.

I went through glorifying moments these past 2 weeks.
Hectic schedules but very fruitful :)
Christmas was a season of pure joy and LOVE!
Had a most splendid time with family and friends and of course, an abundance of praise to celebrate Jesus' birthday!
That's what Chirstmas is all about right ;)

Thanksgiving Chalet is the most heart-warming event of every year personally.
Seeing how all of us broke our heart and poured out our emotions of giving thanks and appreciation, never once failed to touch my heart greatly.

I have grown defintely. And it's really a nice feeling when somebody thank you for something you did for them, whether a big or small thing, because it is something that really matters to them.
I am truly so very grateful.

E405 is really a home I can take refuge in, whenever and whatever it is.
one day if the world is against me, i'll come home :)

i feel myself rising up to another level of breakthrough this coming new year.
a dear friend of mine just reminded me that i may be pressed on everyside, burdened and what not, but i am not crushed.

:)

Bring it on, trials.

why are you afraid? O you of little faith.

I am currently reading this book that ting gave me for my birthday. Pretty interesting.

i'm not yet to the end of the book, actually not even half of the book, but there's one part i want to share.

Fear is a perceieved loss of control.

The more insecured we feel, the meaner we become.

Because we feel cornered.

wow isn't it true! i'm sure all of us felt this way before.

a few days ago, i was dreaming about my 白马王子 which was kinda strange because i never felt that way before.

forget about that, anyway i have recently decided to slow down the pace of my life.

Saw the harshness of life, and the beautiful side of it as well.

And, i realised i have became more tolerant. A nicer word is understanding i guess.

Like those people giving out flyers in your neighbourhood, i observed the people passing by, some rudely showed signs of irritation, most ignored their presence and some simply grab it from their hands and shoved it into the nearest bin. Very few actually take it and see what the flyer really is about.

if everybody continues to act in such a manner, wouldn't the company producing these flyers be wasting their money on printing and finding manpower to distribute the flyers.

and isn't it wrong if we show signs of irritation when they are simply doing their job. i mean, okay, if you are really rushing to somewhere and you don't want to be disturbed, i think the only kind thing to do is to give a wave and say no thanks.

afterall, these distributers don't owe you a living, so what's with the sulky face. heh.

The above is one major example i experienced as i slowed down my pace in life.

i think it's good to stop whatever you are doing once i awhile and see how you can really contribute to the goodness of mankind.

i made a mistake in the past, because i am not afraid to tell you the truth that i am actually one of the most who simply ignore the presence of the flyer distributer.

but now, i would really want to uphold the lesson i have learnt and to understand every detail of the situation before i have negative thoughts about it.

LIFE IS REALLY FAIR (actually).

and no, life do not suck.