Should anyone’s reaction or response sway my efforts - then I am too attached to the results and not committed enough to the possibility.
I didn't understand this when I first read this off an amazing person's blog. Then i read again and again, and i finally understood. Please take some time to understand it because I feel that this is true and really important to build good commitments in terms of your work and relationships.
In my way of applying the above statement, it works like this.
I am committed to being a daughter. I will not be attached to my mum's nags or my dad's rants. I am committed to being a daughter.
I am committed to being a student. I will not be attached to breaking school rules or not studying for exams. I am committed to being a student.
I am committed to being a friend. I will not be attached to you ignoring me when you are having a bad day. I am committed to being a friend.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right...
Imagine Me Without You by Jaci Velaquez is the song choice for Semi-finals :)
Beautiful song with powerful words. I am so excited to practise this song with the blending and only with the music accompaniment!
But why am I getting the flu bug now... :(
When it's difficult to love someone, can we please just accept the person? The person feeling so unloved must have gotten it bad enough, why push her into a greater misery of feeling unaccepted...It's just not right.
I'm saddened by the fact that some people laugh and tease and judge someone else's imperfections. I mean, God's creations are fair. He won't make you better by making me worse off. If He gives you a specific talent, I believe He has given me a gift too. And with our different God-given gifts and talents, no one can boast. Because you may have some excellent attribute or talent that seemingly puts you higher than another person, but hey, that person may have something equally great that is inside of him that he can shine as well.
Beautiful song with powerful words. I am so excited to practise this song with the blending and only with the music accompaniment!
But why am I getting the flu bug now... :(
When it's difficult to love someone, can we please just accept the person? The person feeling so unloved must have gotten it bad enough, why push her into a greater misery of feeling unaccepted...It's just not right.
I'm saddened by the fact that some people laugh and tease and judge someone else's imperfections. I mean, God's creations are fair. He won't make you better by making me worse off. If He gives you a specific talent, I believe He has given me a gift too. And with our different God-given gifts and talents, no one can boast. Because you may have some excellent attribute or talent that seemingly puts you higher than another person, but hey, that person may have something equally great that is inside of him that he can shine as well.
Friday, April 9, 2010
Awesome feeling when the results were out today! Our group made it to the semi-finals for Talentime! :) And things are getting more competitive now because all the other vocal groups are really strong! Well, just glad that our efforts for the auditions paid off. All glory to God!
Ok, but today, receiving physics test results was demoralizing. Though i wasn't in a good condition to study for this test at that time, I guess i'm still quite disappointed because i think it's not a good excuse not to study. I need to buck up. Yet, some of my friends tell me i am already pushing myself too hard. Of course i do feel i'm more hardworking this year compared to last year, but it's different because J2's workload is naturally heavier and there is a much higher sense of urgency since Alevels are nearing, so I must work even harder on top of my other commitments! Yes, keep going!
My weekends are forever so packed, and i don't know if it's a good thing, but i know definitely the time i spent are not to waste. Now that choir practices are on saturdays, together with church in the evening, i am seriously out the entire day from morning to late at night. And yay! I am going for SC carnival tomorrow! Will get to see many ex-graduates there too :) Pretty excited!
So my day tomorrow will be filled with activities, meaning Sunday is a good day (less busy) to catch up with work and do as much revision as i can. So thank God that weekends are made out of two days and not just one :) Sometimes, we are just thankful for such things in life.
Yesterday, we had a GP essay test and i wrote on the question, How important are dreams? And a long train of thoughts just came crashing through my mind. I really had many thoughts and feelings towards this question and it really came knocking at the door of my heart because i never actually thought about this question before! Hopefully i can do well :) And guess what, rachel did the same question too! Wow, i believe it tugged her heart too when she saw that question. Haha and we went on reading each other's essays to learn from each other. Pretty similar points but different ways of explanation, so it was a good read and an enjoyable GP test i have taken thus far!
People are moving on, and time never stops ticking, so by convention, we should keep pace with time :)
Ok, but today, receiving physics test results was demoralizing. Though i wasn't in a good condition to study for this test at that time, I guess i'm still quite disappointed because i think it's not a good excuse not to study. I need to buck up. Yet, some of my friends tell me i am already pushing myself too hard. Of course i do feel i'm more hardworking this year compared to last year, but it's different because J2's workload is naturally heavier and there is a much higher sense of urgency since Alevels are nearing, so I must work even harder on top of my other commitments! Yes, keep going!
My weekends are forever so packed, and i don't know if it's a good thing, but i know definitely the time i spent are not to waste. Now that choir practices are on saturdays, together with church in the evening, i am seriously out the entire day from morning to late at night. And yay! I am going for SC carnival tomorrow! Will get to see many ex-graduates there too :) Pretty excited!
So my day tomorrow will be filled with activities, meaning Sunday is a good day (less busy) to catch up with work and do as much revision as i can. So thank God that weekends are made out of two days and not just one :) Sometimes, we are just thankful for such things in life.
Yesterday, we had a GP essay test and i wrote on the question, How important are dreams? And a long train of thoughts just came crashing through my mind. I really had many thoughts and feelings towards this question and it really came knocking at the door of my heart because i never actually thought about this question before! Hopefully i can do well :) And guess what, rachel did the same question too! Wow, i believe it tugged her heart too when she saw that question. Haha and we went on reading each other's essays to learn from each other. Pretty similar points but different ways of explanation, so it was a good read and an enjoyable GP test i have taken thus far!
People are moving on, and time never stops ticking, so by convention, we should keep pace with time :)
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Your love is higher, higher than the heaven. Your mercies deeper, deeper than the earth. Your grace is wider, wider than the ocean.
Easter service in church yesterday was awesome awesome awesome!!! The original drama production by CHC, "Lifebook" was exciting, touching and simply humorous! The epic LADY GAGA was significant. I really can't get enough of CHC's drama productions! Really one of the kind and not that i am being biased, but they are the best i have seen! And the thing is, the drama ministry consists of volunteers, not full-time professionals. And sure enough, they received a great roaring applause that they truly deserve! Every year, it just gets better :)
Now, I can't wait for Christmas! But of course, Easter isn't all about the dramas, the bunnies, the eggs and what not, the reason for this season is Jesus! And as we began to rejoice and take joy in His amazing love, i got reminded of how living in my own ways bring me down, but living in Jesus' ways keep me going. I was certainly very happy that Flo was able to join me in this time of celebration and i was so touched when i saw her crying. Wow, she was greatly touched. And i was greatly thankful. Went to the airport for dinner and i was just too awed by her openness towards me, very grateful for her trust in me. Nobody in this world including me can understand what she has been through and what she is going through now, and i'm just so heartened by the fact that she is still hanging on, just for one very honest reason, her love for her family. It's amazing! And in many ways, she told me that we are pretty similar in terms of the things we experience and our outlooks in life! Just so extremely thankful that when she almost thought that nobody cared and understood, she saw me as someone different from the rest. This really humbles me alot because i know that being there for somebody is not just physical, but emotional and always keeping them in your prayers. I'm believing with every one of you that if people like Flo is able to say "I want to live on" despite facing extreme storms in her life, we are definitely able to treasure our lives and loved ones no matter how tough things go, because you know what, there are people out there who are worse off than you but are still living and loving. In fact, your comfortable life is a proof of how much more you can give your comfort away to those who just yearn for love :)
Oh yes, I went out with some SC friends yesterday for lunch as well and we ate at Shokudo :) Enjoyed the company as usual and really do hope that more of them will join us the next time we meet which will be at SC carnival on 10th April!
Today's choir practice in the morning was again, very fruitful, very enjoyable, very overwhelming in fact! This could really be what i've always dreamed of, people unleashing their potential! I have a strong feeling in my heart that our choir is really climbing higher. And of course, Mr Lim played a huge role in making this possible! He is one amazing conductor, teacher and friend! I am overwhelmed because of how we are able to learn two songs every session and both are sung so beautifully as a choir! I know that we are not the best and we may not even have reached a well-enough standard, but we stayed united and looked as if we really wanted to be the best! And that's the spirit behind every success isn't it? :)
Dad and mum prepared dinner today and i feel so loved eating the food they cooked. Dad cooked fried rice after such a long time and i am proud that my dad can cook! And there were chicken wings and cream of mushroom corn soup. And pearl just came home with a cheesecake from spinelli as usual, though i was really full but i still ate it anyway. I really appreciate. My family.
I have one problem now. And i am just praying that things will work out! I really don't want to miss the opportunity. And somehow, i realised that when i am excited and ready for something big in my life, another important thing will happen on that same day and time and i will be stuck in my decisions. Whether if i have to forgo any, or can i actually do something to keep both. I am keeping my fingers cross!
P.S: Ting, just so you know, you remind me of an egg. Go think about it and tell me why you remind of an egg! Think deep okay :)
P.S.S: Flo, i want you to know that strong girls cry, but after the tears, they get stronger. Strong girls break down, but after the fall, they emerge stronger. Strong girls get negative sometimes, but it's not because they are giving up, it's because they are trying to let go. Strong girls need help sometimes, and after that help, they help others. Strong girls smile most of time, and it's genuine because there's no reason to engage in self-pity. Strong girls encourage and love unconditionally even when they don't feel too good themselves, because that's when their hearts grow up. You are a strong girl! Take care!
Now, I can't wait for Christmas! But of course, Easter isn't all about the dramas, the bunnies, the eggs and what not, the reason for this season is Jesus! And as we began to rejoice and take joy in His amazing love, i got reminded of how living in my own ways bring me down, but living in Jesus' ways keep me going. I was certainly very happy that Flo was able to join me in this time of celebration and i was so touched when i saw her crying. Wow, she was greatly touched. And i was greatly thankful. Went to the airport for dinner and i was just too awed by her openness towards me, very grateful for her trust in me. Nobody in this world including me can understand what she has been through and what she is going through now, and i'm just so heartened by the fact that she is still hanging on, just for one very honest reason, her love for her family. It's amazing! And in many ways, she told me that we are pretty similar in terms of the things we experience and our outlooks in life! Just so extremely thankful that when she almost thought that nobody cared and understood, she saw me as someone different from the rest. This really humbles me alot because i know that being there for somebody is not just physical, but emotional and always keeping them in your prayers. I'm believing with every one of you that if people like Flo is able to say "I want to live on" despite facing extreme storms in her life, we are definitely able to treasure our lives and loved ones no matter how tough things go, because you know what, there are people out there who are worse off than you but are still living and loving. In fact, your comfortable life is a proof of how much more you can give your comfort away to those who just yearn for love :)
Oh yes, I went out with some SC friends yesterday for lunch as well and we ate at Shokudo :) Enjoyed the company as usual and really do hope that more of them will join us the next time we meet which will be at SC carnival on 10th April!
Today's choir practice in the morning was again, very fruitful, very enjoyable, very overwhelming in fact! This could really be what i've always dreamed of, people unleashing their potential! I have a strong feeling in my heart that our choir is really climbing higher. And of course, Mr Lim played a huge role in making this possible! He is one amazing conductor, teacher and friend! I am overwhelmed because of how we are able to learn two songs every session and both are sung so beautifully as a choir! I know that we are not the best and we may not even have reached a well-enough standard, but we stayed united and looked as if we really wanted to be the best! And that's the spirit behind every success isn't it? :)
Dad and mum prepared dinner today and i feel so loved eating the food they cooked. Dad cooked fried rice after such a long time and i am proud that my dad can cook! And there were chicken wings and cream of mushroom corn soup. And pearl just came home with a cheesecake from spinelli as usual, though i was really full but i still ate it anyway. I really appreciate. My family.
I have one problem now. And i am just praying that things will work out! I really don't want to miss the opportunity. And somehow, i realised that when i am excited and ready for something big in my life, another important thing will happen on that same day and time and i will be stuck in my decisions. Whether if i have to forgo any, or can i actually do something to keep both. I am keeping my fingers cross!
P.S: Ting, just so you know, you remind me of an egg. Go think about it and tell me why you remind of an egg! Think deep okay :)
P.S.S: Flo, i want you to know that strong girls cry, but after the tears, they get stronger. Strong girls break down, but after the fall, they emerge stronger. Strong girls get negative sometimes, but it's not because they are giving up, it's because they are trying to let go. Strong girls need help sometimes, and after that help, they help others. Strong girls smile most of time, and it's genuine because there's no reason to engage in self-pity. Strong girls encourage and love unconditionally even when they don't feel too good themselves, because that's when their hearts grow up. You are a strong girl! Take care!
Friday, April 2, 2010
You work in Amazing ways!
HAPPY EASTER TO EVERYBODY IN THE WORLD!
Have a great time with your family and friends!
Thursday, April 1, 2010
A broken heart that the world forgot
It's past midnight now, and here i am having the sudden urge to blog.
Talentime auditions are really around the corner, hmm it's in less than a week's time! Jingru had been pretty uptight about it and i know that it's because she really wants to perform to our best! And this uptightness is equally present in Suyi and I as well. From the beats to the blending, all of which we really strive to practice harder. That's one challenge of being in a acapella vocal group :) Yet, it's still something worth trying for an unforgettable experience i believe.
Angel & Mortal is a game i enjoy playing since primary school and it's really a good game to build closer bonds among one another. However, this is provided if everybody are willing to participate actively in it or not. Whether people value their relationships with the people around them more than they value their personal comfort and convenience... What a choice huh.
I almost got into a accident yesterday. The bus i was taking home after tuition was travelling a fast speed since there's less traffic at 10plus at night, and it nearly crashed into a taxi, but fortunately, the bus driver managed to jam-brack just in time to save lives. Every passenger in the bus got flung all the way to the front! And thankfully, i just knocked my head on the seat in front of me, because i was so afraid that that could just be the end. Thank god, my parents could have just lost a daughter, my sister could have just lost a sister and my friends could have just lost a friend.
Talentime auditions are really around the corner, hmm it's in less than a week's time! Jingru had been pretty uptight about it and i know that it's because she really wants to perform to our best! And this uptightness is equally present in Suyi and I as well. From the beats to the blending, all of which we really strive to practice harder. That's one challenge of being in a acapella vocal group :) Yet, it's still something worth trying for an unforgettable experience i believe.
Angel & Mortal is a game i enjoy playing since primary school and it's really a good game to build closer bonds among one another. However, this is provided if everybody are willing to participate actively in it or not. Whether people value their relationships with the people around them more than they value their personal comfort and convenience... What a choice huh.
I almost got into a accident yesterday. The bus i was taking home after tuition was travelling a fast speed since there's less traffic at 10plus at night, and it nearly crashed into a taxi, but fortunately, the bus driver managed to jam-brack just in time to save lives. Every passenger in the bus got flung all the way to the front! And thankfully, i just knocked my head on the seat in front of me, because i was so afraid that that could just be the end. Thank god, my parents could have just lost a daughter, my sister could have just lost a sister and my friends could have just lost a friend.
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Stand strong on your own stage of fear.
I have a great feeling that my Sunday today will be a productive one. Now that mum and dad attended the parents' info session in school yesterday, they seem equally or even more excited for the upcoming Alevels than me! Excited is perhaps not the right word... hm, anxious. Yes, anxious.
So, mum is probably doing what she deems fit in my academics now. And me, giving her free reign as much as possible, knowing that i will benefit from all these deprivation of relaxation. Yet, of course there are certain limits to what she can do for me. All of which is up to me!
Singing makes me happy :) Because the choice of songs i sing expresses everything i've got to say and sometimes, it even indirectly reveals feelings that i try not to let it out! It doesn't really matter if you have a good voice right, after all, it's just the matter of having the confidence and courage to sing out, and not caring so much about how others think :)
So, mum is probably doing what she deems fit in my academics now. And me, giving her free reign as much as possible, knowing that i will benefit from all these deprivation of relaxation. Yet, of course there are certain limits to what she can do for me. All of which is up to me!
Singing makes me happy :) Because the choice of songs i sing expresses everything i've got to say and sometimes, it even indirectly reveals feelings that i try not to let it out! It doesn't really matter if you have a good voice right, after all, it's just the matter of having the confidence and courage to sing out, and not caring so much about how others think :)
Friday, March 26, 2010
Come what may
I am learning new guitar strumming patterns! Excited to learn more from the handy youtube and my sister :)
This week had been horrible, not that i am being negative or anything, but honestly, it was pretty horrible. But i shall not go into the details because it's nothing worth remembering, but of course there are lessons that i have learnt throughout this horrible week that are definitely worth remembering for life.
One happy note was that i've come to know more about my inner self. The things i can do and the things that i can achieve if i keep believing. Nothing is impossible, really. It's just a matter of putting in the sincere effort to do it or not.
My friends are really very kind to me and i cannot help but to feel so touched and thankful for everything, even the puny little things they have done or simply the thought. Which really counts alot :) I am extremely grateful for the support and every single one of you means alot alot to me!
My parents and sister too, have been really concerned over my life recently and i know that really, my family are people whom i will never ever want to lose and i will do anything to keep them safe. Me being the youngest somehow gives me more power to protect daddy, mummy and sister with all i am. Filial piety is a virtue i respect the most above all other virtues.
Meeting up with secondary school friends yesterday was such a blessing! Besides the celebration of Esther's and Jemaine's birthday, we also got to catch up and soak in the warmth of one another's company! These dear old friends are just so precious to me and i do hope that we will remain so close in many many years to come! Like they say, make new friends and keep old ones.
I am so glad this horrible school week will come to pass, and tomorrow will be a brighter and happier day, claiming by faith! I'd pray that though suffering is tiring and painful, i'll still stay faithful, positive and to always find strength in every struggle. And i have to stop thinking that no one knows or understands.
Because i know. Surely someone understands.
I just got to believe.
This week had been horrible, not that i am being negative or anything, but honestly, it was pretty horrible. But i shall not go into the details because it's nothing worth remembering, but of course there are lessons that i have learnt throughout this horrible week that are definitely worth remembering for life.
One happy note was that i've come to know more about my inner self. The things i can do and the things that i can achieve if i keep believing. Nothing is impossible, really. It's just a matter of putting in the sincere effort to do it or not.
My friends are really very kind to me and i cannot help but to feel so touched and thankful for everything, even the puny little things they have done or simply the thought. Which really counts alot :) I am extremely grateful for the support and every single one of you means alot alot to me!
My parents and sister too, have been really concerned over my life recently and i know that really, my family are people whom i will never ever want to lose and i will do anything to keep them safe. Me being the youngest somehow gives me more power to protect daddy, mummy and sister with all i am. Filial piety is a virtue i respect the most above all other virtues.
Meeting up with secondary school friends yesterday was such a blessing! Besides the celebration of Esther's and Jemaine's birthday, we also got to catch up and soak in the warmth of one another's company! These dear old friends are just so precious to me and i do hope that we will remain so close in many many years to come! Like they say, make new friends and keep old ones.
I am so glad this horrible school week will come to pass, and tomorrow will be a brighter and happier day, claiming by faith! I'd pray that though suffering is tiring and painful, i'll still stay faithful, positive and to always find strength in every struggle. And i have to stop thinking that no one knows or understands.
Because i know. Surely someone understands.
I just got to believe.
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Never deprive people of the best we can offer.
Even as I await a brand new day, I want to embrace this very day, the last day of the one-week break. Because after today, life is going to get more challenging I believe!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)