God is so good to me!
i am awed by His amazing Love and Grace.
i am just so so so..thankful!

FACING THE GIANTS is really an inspiring and touching movie!
it's really incredible and very very encouraging.
thank you emelia for recommending this movie because i strongly believe it changed my life!
i feel change in myself.

all the sufferings are really a test of my faith.
and when i have passed the test, God will prepare something greater.

Hatred is the lack of love.
Defeat is the lack of hope.
Unbelief is the lack of faith.

It is a lack. Not an absolute absence.
I trust my God that He will guide you in His ways if only you allow Him to, with some faith, hope and love.

I can never be thankful enough.
This is surely going to be my living testimony.

Carry each other's burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ. If anyone thinks he is something when he is nothing, he deceives himself.

Galatians 6:2-3

i am so disappointed. why don't you keep your word.

i don't want to talk anymore.

why is today just such a bad day.

just full of sorrows.

if only i can stop thinking about everything and just fall straight to sleep once my head touches the pillow. how nice huh.

i can't believe how stressful it's gonna be when i go j2 next year.

the workload is horrendous. and i just feel so worried if my foundation is even strong enough for me to catch up.

but i am really not playing. i have already tried my best to grasp the syllabus, but it seems to me that i am not trying hard enough?

really dislike this not-trying-hard-enough feeling.

and i realised the burdens of the world are escalating day by day.

the world is not sad, but apparently less happy.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ODELIA!!!!!!!
haha yay! another dwarf's birthday(:

i love this song!! a song that touches my heart each time i sing it.

Deeper in Love

One thing that I desire in my life Lord

To thirst and hunger after You alone

With all my heart and soul

With all my strength and love

To worship as Your glory fills this place

Deeper in love with You

Deeper in love with You

I love You more than anything in life

Deeper in love with You

Deeper in love with You

Oh how I love You Lord

Gratitude.

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!!

extremely grateful for all your help to make the wall painting a success!!

it's because of you!

your effort made the difference!

i really appreciate it so much!!

finally, i can put my mind off the mural design painting.

really not an easy job. and definitely of heavy responsibility.

it's school property! and it's something i don't want to be messin' around with.

secondly, it got to look good! and i'm proud that it is.

lastly, so many helping hands! meaning i've got to take care of more needs and account for them.

sincerely am i so thankful.
God, thank you for walking with me through this.

HALLELUJAH!

i am just so extremely happy today!!!!!

best day of the week i must say!

no words can express how thankful i am to you God.

You're simply amazing and amuzing!!

thank you for answering all my prayers.

what a breakthrough week.

oh man you just don't know how overjoyed i am!

this means everything to me!

i feel even more encouraged this time to keep enduring and persevering when the going gets tough because really, trust me, your efforts will be honoured.

even if they are not recognised or whatsoever, i know that my God will honour my efforts.

Winning the lost(:

i just bore another fruit today!

haha it's a personal metaphor kind of thing.

i am just thrilled and proud to see you find your purpose, hannqian(:

today, i had lots of feelings. all of which are positive feelings!

this is it!

the storm of my life (yet) has cleared.

now, i see the rainbow!

i am prepared for the next storm.

it's just a matter of my attitude now.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAIQA!!!
may you have a blessed birthday my dear friend!

i am gonna havve Bible study TEST later!!
and while i was revising through my books, i came across this phrase which i've penned down before, it says, "The heart of the problem is the problem of your heart."
initially, i was like huh? i couldn't catch it.
so i read again and again.
and yes, i saw the light!! hahaha i understood it(:

have been playing the guitar almost daily without fail this week and i'm glad my skills are improving!
now i know why people always say, "If you want something, you must work hard for it."
yeahh i am gonna believe this!
i will bear my fruits of labour!
=)

Hi!

Today i loved alot(:
God, you rock!!

i feel so worned out today.
not because i did lots of stuff, but because i loved!
loving is tiring cause it's unconditional sacrifice.

i'm glad i was able to withstand all the little sufferings to make someone happier.
it's a good start, at least.

went for blood donation today! and it wasn't all that scary since it was my second time.
but i just felt more drained than the first time.
and i think the nurse poked the needle at a different position this time round.
it's bruising up):
hopefully the pain will go away soon.

brought my guitar to school today too and jammed with hq and emelia.
seeing how keen and how much they enjoy playing the guitar made me remember how i first started out in learning to play the guitar.
there was really an inspiring reason behind my craze for the guitar.
truly, with passion, great things do happen(:

hey hq and emelia, sorry if i kinda appear shagged or down?
just having slight issues with my you-know-what-problem.

but i hope everything became better after econs when we started playing the guitar again!
and learning cool songs together.
just to let you know i really tried my very best to be okay alright!

michelle and rachel are like living in their own world now. haha crazy over some anime thing!
and i have seriously no idea what they are talking about.

dinner with jianhui today was good(:
managed to catch up on quite a couple of stuff.
and i got encouraged by all that he said.
one thing that struck me hard was, "You just have to take the first step."
he's the mannnnn!

alright i'm officially getting weak.
and i'm having a bad flu now):
at all times -_-
please pray for me!

DELUSION

Sometimes, I really wonder if I am just a small person in this world or am I someone bigger than I think I am.

Send angels and watch over my family and friends and loved ones, dear Jesus.

today in the bus, i listened to Footprints in the Sand and i started crying like for no reason (?!?!?!)

of course no one saw me! i hid well ;)

but why!! i don't even feel like crying and i don't even want to!

i think the song just really touched my heart at that very moment.

i heard every word of the song so so clearly and perhaps i got too fully-submerged into the whole song that made tears flow so unexpectedly.

then now i think, it's a touch from heaven.

i really need to love more. love more. love more!!!!!!!!

Thank God.

i didn't realise how exhausted i was until midnight came and i have finally completed making the 3D model of a machine and the layout of a route map for project work!

painting, designing, everything!!

DONE.

a total of 26 hours of my life spent on that! can't believe it.

JJ 102 is fighting on!!!

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i have learnt how to fix a ceiling light today!!
my bedroom light blew off a few days ago and i had to use my bedside lamp for work at night.
pretty bad for the eyes.
daddy bought new light bulb today and taught me how to fix it(:
yay in case of similar cases in the future, i will know to fix it myself!

had been busy with PW stuff these couple of days.
haven't been watching online dramas):
perhaps i just haven't found a good show to catch yet.

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yesterday went for service and Pst Kong shared an awesome message which came pretty timely for most of us!

7 kinds of sufferings:

1) Storm of life
2) Chastening
3) Temptation
4) Spiritual Warfare
5) Afflictions
6) Persecutions
7) Trials of faith

All in all, it just means that it is the nature of life to be stormy and we must be prepared for both blessing and adversity. And being persecuted is a privilege because it just means you are entrusted and honoured for bigger things in life despite having to suffer for it. In a way, it is a gift!

Trials of faith requires patience and patience is perseverance and perseverance is the capacity to endure. Truly, your attitude determines your altitude.

And spiritually, the more God wants to use you, the more the devil plots against you. For one reason, the devil is jealous. Jealous of your close relationship with God. Once you condemn, judge and accuse, you are actually doing the devil's work! Scary huh.

Another thing is to encourage yourself when there's no one encouraging you. This makes us someone who is positive and not someone who is always depressed.

yes, it doesn't mean if you're righteous, you won't suffer.
often, successful people are people who worked the hardest and suffered the most.
yeah!!

i am so encouraged by this message!!

i presume now most of us are suffering under the storms of life.
since promos results came as a blow for some of us.
well, there's hope, there's hope.

have your heard of seeing a rainbow after a storm? or have you experienced it?
cause i must say this is really true!!

maybe we should stop blaming the promo papers for being difficult or the teachers who set these horrible papers. maybe it just have got to do with our own attitude.

Though He will slay me, I will still hope in Him.

-Job 13:15-