a good friend of mine called when i was taking a nap just now.
she was sobbing.
crying.
she said, "Toby is missing."
and she went on sniffing and telling me what exactly happened.
i was stunned and probably had no idea what to say.
i listened and i pretty much understood how she felt.
i tried to comfort her and thought of positive ways to make her feel better.
i hope it did.
i couldn't sleep after that.
it's the feeling of losing someone.
empty.
this is the first time this friend called, crying.
and i am convinced that no man is strong all the time.
don't worry ting!
God answers prayers.
okay now i can't express how terrible today is.
my faith is NOT shaking.
i am not being emotional, just honest.
