I am happy.
I appreciate all the good listeners in my life.
People think I encourage when I am doing well and feeling mighty. But the truth is, most of the time, I encourage people when I am at my lowest.
I see people get better and slowly, I get better too.
I just want to do my best for everybody.
Monday, August 30, 2010
Friday, August 27, 2010
WOW. I came across this...
Things happen. Weather happens. Traffic happens. Loss Happens. Troubles are ordinary and common, and they're nothing more than snags in what you wish were a perfect conversation. Better yet, troubles ARE perfect as they are blessings packaged in a way to make you want to get inside of them - to have victory over circumstance - to rise like a phoenix from any fire and say I AM ME.
Hello I have a chemistry paper later. Now it's morning already.
Heard of the darkest hour is that before dawn?
Thought that it was pretty encouraging for my current situation.
My therapist said she wants to see me in two weeks' time. What does that mean? I think it's clear enough.
I went home feeling really heavy. And unfortunately, math paper the next day was horrendous. Though I was already expecting myself to feel that way, yet part of me thought that I did put in a considerable amount of effort to study well for it despite being caught in a physical and emotional struggle. But now that it is over, I am just plain excited to attend the math crash course weekly. Just so to improve in the fastest time possible.
Even as the year is coming to an end, it comes as a huge shock to see myself as who I have become today. Many things come to my mind each time I think of an incident, memory and even person that had changed my life whether in a small or big way.
I look at the trials I am facing and I think, hey you weren't that scary after all. I did overcome. And for some that I didn't manage to overcome, I gain little insights and experiences that are sufficient to tell little stories of my own.
It is hard for anyone to imagine the life I am going through with this vexatious back condition of mine. Though very common presently. I mean, it's my major examinations I am taking this year. I know, really that I have to work harder than anyone else.
I am so very thankful to have a God who loves and stretches my capacity all the time. Giving me the positivity to carry within me even as I have to go through miles and miles of trying moments.
I got to stay strong. For the glory of God.
Ultimately, I am still able. I believe I can do greater things because I have done things that have proven a simple theory that, love really makes people go the distance.
I have Jesus in me. That's why I have love in me.
Heard of the darkest hour is that before dawn?
Thought that it was pretty encouraging for my current situation.
My therapist said she wants to see me in two weeks' time. What does that mean? I think it's clear enough.
I went home feeling really heavy. And unfortunately, math paper the next day was horrendous. Though I was already expecting myself to feel that way, yet part of me thought that I did put in a considerable amount of effort to study well for it despite being caught in a physical and emotional struggle. But now that it is over, I am just plain excited to attend the math crash course weekly. Just so to improve in the fastest time possible.
Even as the year is coming to an end, it comes as a huge shock to see myself as who I have become today. Many things come to my mind each time I think of an incident, memory and even person that had changed my life whether in a small or big way.
I look at the trials I am facing and I think, hey you weren't that scary after all. I did overcome. And for some that I didn't manage to overcome, I gain little insights and experiences that are sufficient to tell little stories of my own.
It is hard for anyone to imagine the life I am going through with this vexatious back condition of mine. Though very common presently. I mean, it's my major examinations I am taking this year. I know, really that I have to work harder than anyone else.
I am so very thankful to have a God who loves and stretches my capacity all the time. Giving me the positivity to carry within me even as I have to go through miles and miles of trying moments.
I got to stay strong. For the glory of God.
Ultimately, I am still able. I believe I can do greater things because I have done things that have proven a simple theory that, love really makes people go the distance.
I have Jesus in me. That's why I have love in me.
Monday, August 23, 2010
I am a little worried by the fact that my hand gets numb when I am doing my paper.
The pen just falls off my grip. And time doesn't stop for me. Everyone around carries on. And all I can do is wait and pray that I can hold my pen soon. (Not even complete my paper, I just want to hold my pen!)
I am mentally preparing myself for the worst scenario already. Not that I am pessimistic, I just feel I should know what to do when it really happens.
If I am able to wipe off my fears for the upcoming papers and Alevels despite this little struggle, I am sure you can do much better than me. (Hopefully this encourages you in any way)
I might not be able to make it, but I want to be a good living testimony.
I will keep going. With a smile.
Kindly,
Jo
The pen just falls off my grip. And time doesn't stop for me. Everyone around carries on. And all I can do is wait and pray that I can hold my pen soon. (Not even complete my paper, I just want to hold my pen!)
I am mentally preparing myself for the worst scenario already. Not that I am pessimistic, I just feel I should know what to do when it really happens.
If I am able to wipe off my fears for the upcoming papers and Alevels despite this little struggle, I am sure you can do much better than me. (Hopefully this encourages you in any way)
I might not be able to make it, but I want to be a good living testimony.
I will keep going. With a smile.
Kindly,
Jo
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
100810: Unafraid what's ahead
I think I should stop waiting already.
Ok, I am moving on.
There's a part of me that I want to fix. My hair.
It's getting out of shape.
I can't wait for the study break.
I know I will feel more accomplished. Somehow or rather.
My sister's birthday is coming in 5 days' time and I wish I could give her something extraordinary. I will work on it.
Oh, as for my prelims, I am already working on it.
:)
Ok, I am moving on.
There's a part of me that I want to fix. My hair.
It's getting out of shape.
I can't wait for the study break.
I know I will feel more accomplished. Somehow or rather.
My sister's birthday is coming in 5 days' time and I wish I could give her something extraordinary. I will work on it.
Oh, as for my prelims, I am already working on it.
:)
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Arise My Child.
I suddenly have a seriously bad feeling for prelims. I feel quite unprepared and this is quite ironic considering that I have cut down on many activities just so I can study at home.
This certainly proves that I haven't been working smart. Gee, I really don't know how else I should do.
I am really motivated to do well but I can't deny that I feel so physically tired most of the time. And I really don't want to use my back condition as an excuse. Although it's really been affecting my life. Lately, it's been so bad that I can't really get proper rest and the concentration I need for revision. It's just so distracting.
Tyring various means to make it better and still believing for a miracle or something magical to happen.
Very rarely, but it occurred to me before that I just want to close my eyes and wake up only when I want to. And then, I think again, isn't that escapism? And I arise because I dislike it.
This certainly proves that I haven't been working smart. Gee, I really don't know how else I should do.
I am really motivated to do well but I can't deny that I feel so physically tired most of the time. And I really don't want to use my back condition as an excuse. Although it's really been affecting my life. Lately, it's been so bad that I can't really get proper rest and the concentration I need for revision. It's just so distracting.
Tyring various means to make it better and still believing for a miracle or something magical to happen.
Very rarely, but it occurred to me before that I just want to close my eyes and wake up only when I want to. And then, I think again, isn't that escapism? And I arise because I dislike it.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Give up...your seat.
I really love playing the guitar alot! Although I have so much so much to improve on! I just like the feel of strumming and playing like nobody's business.
You don't have to know music to play it, you just need to appreciate it.
Sometimes, I get a little feeling of doubt. I don't know if they are truly words I can believe in or simply words that people say... I just hope for the best and expect nothing else.
You don't have to know music to play it, you just need to appreciate it.
Sometimes, I get a little feeling of doubt. I don't know if they are truly words I can believe in or simply words that people say... I just hope for the best and expect nothing else.
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Awaken my soul!
Counting down, prelims are in two weeks' time! And very soon, we will overcome Alevels and break free!
The weather had been strange lately. Not that I dislike the nice cooling weather, I am just worried for the planet. Climate changes are pertinent all over the world today and I think this is something to be concerned with. It is really about US.
Festival of Praise was definitely one of the greatest events of the year! (The best event to be at on 30th and 31st July 2010) I will miss anything for this! People from all walks of life gathered in unity to give thanks and praise the one and only Lord of my life. God is really good, He gave us storms so as to strengthen us, prepare us and prosper us for a future and a hope! I believe everyone was feeling as humbled as I was and as blessed as I felt.
We should never lose sight of our vision and dreams because God never did lose sight of us. We should never deny our faith and beliefs because God never did denied any part of us. Most importantly, we should never stop loving because God's love for us is abundant, undying and everlasting.
Those who follow a heart of Jesus will walk blameless and righteous. Because we may fail, but He never fails!
The road I am taking now is seemingly endless and exhausting, but I will carry on because I don't want to lose the hopefulness in me. The pain I am going through is daunting and terrifying, but I want to keep that tenacity in me. If for any moment you think that you are going through trials that you alone are facing, hmmm actually, someone else had already been there and overcame the odds!
There's always a greater purpose behind every situation :) I believe.
The weather had been strange lately. Not that I dislike the nice cooling weather, I am just worried for the planet. Climate changes are pertinent all over the world today and I think this is something to be concerned with. It is really about US.
Festival of Praise was definitely one of the greatest events of the year! (The best event to be at on 30th and 31st July 2010) I will miss anything for this! People from all walks of life gathered in unity to give thanks and praise the one and only Lord of my life. God is really good, He gave us storms so as to strengthen us, prepare us and prosper us for a future and a hope! I believe everyone was feeling as humbled as I was and as blessed as I felt.
We should never lose sight of our vision and dreams because God never did lose sight of us. We should never deny our faith and beliefs because God never did denied any part of us. Most importantly, we should never stop loving because God's love for us is abundant, undying and everlasting.
Those who follow a heart of Jesus will walk blameless and righteous. Because we may fail, but He never fails!
The road I am taking now is seemingly endless and exhausting, but I will carry on because I don't want to lose the hopefulness in me. The pain I am going through is daunting and terrifying, but I want to keep that tenacity in me. If for any moment you think that you are going through trials that you alone are facing, hmmm actually, someone else had already been there and overcame the odds!
There's always a greater purpose behind every situation :) I believe.
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