Sunday, November 29, 2009

Not too far from Home. But far enough to miss Home.

Awesome trip with Awesome people(:

To summarise what i did and experienced in Kota Kinabalu, Sabah:

- Great Hotel, connected to a big shopping mall
- Went to Mount Kinabalu (tallest mountain in South-east Asia!)
- Canopy Walk (more like hiking) and Treetop walk (super high!)
- Went to the beach (got a little blacker :P)
- Went swimming and a little gymming in the hotel
- Watched movie
- Lots of shopping at malls and day and night markets
- Filled up with good food generally
- Did 2 questions of Math holiday homework (better than nothing..)

This was my holiday!
Photos will be up on facebook soon.
I'm sure the photos will speak much much more than whatever is mentioned above :)

Enjoyment does has its consequences as well.
now i have aching arms, shoulders, back and legs..
haha oh well!

Though it's only 4 days, but i still miss home somehow.
trying to get back into the Singapore-kind-of-spirit.
have this weird feeling that jiejie agreed too.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

more than enough.

26th November - 29th November.
A short 4-days getaway to Sabah, Malaysia.
Family, relatives and friends.

A little goodbye to sunny island singapore, for now(:

i find myself talking on the phone alot lately, friends call me up to tell me their woes and problems, saying life sucks and blaming fate for every hardship.
just know that i can try my very best to encourage you but not do things out of my control and as much as i love you, please love yourself too.

i just want to be a good friend. nothing more. but sometimes, it seems like i need to be sure of myself first.
my expectations and my beliefs...hmm.

Monday, November 23, 2009

Humanity.

Chemistry revision exam today wasn't that bad as i expected.
Real glad it's over! And for being well-prepared for it(:
thank God for paving a way for me.

went to catch 2012 with jingru thereafter.
WOW. awed beyond words honestly.
WOW, i repeat, it's really a good show!
the graphics and effects are soooo real!
massive destruction, catastrophe and loss of countless lives.
most importantly, great message on selfless sacrifice, courage and love.
many touching scenes of leaving loved ones with loving words, knowing that it will be the last time they will see or even listen to each other speak.
i saw bravery too.
how courage led them to make an effort, to be hopeful for a chance for survival.
how love pushed them on to find a way, at least, to save their loved ones.

and then again, i ask myself what would i do, really, if something like that happens.
would i freak out or would i try to save humanity.
once such happens, time is running out and within minutes, you could be just swept out of your chair while you are blogging, like me now.
it'll be too late to say i love you to your family, too late to make regrets for what you should have done.

i don't know, shouldn't we just treasure every moment as we live, to love one another.
the human race is depleting.
and i mean, a loving human race.

so what is someone thinks you are weird just because you love people too much.
really, so what.
at least, you'll be the one not having regrets.
Best of all, you honour God by loving His people.

God loves you and i love you too!

Saturday, November 21, 2009

I feel so... blissful :)
somehow. today.
The world is simply sweeeeeeeet <3
As sweet as a million sweets! & a million jars of sugar!

What is life going to be without daddy, mummy and jiejie?
And without friends?
And everybody i love and care for?

HORRIBLE.

I'm just so so thankful and i promise i will learn to love more each day!

got reminded of this tag line,
Unequal amounts; Equal sacrifices.

the things we do for the people we love can be measured, but the sacrifices we give from our hearts are equal and incomparable.

It's time people learn to appreciate one another! Even if they are physically there or not.
Who knows the person you dislike most will be the one picking you up someday :)

Friday, November 20, 2009

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY RACHEL!!!!!
May all your dreams come trueeee(:
<3

Thursday, November 19, 2009

like no other.

But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.
-Matthew 7:14-

yesterday was a beautiful day!
our choir went to St. Joseph's Home to perform three Christmas songs!
and to interact with the old folks there(:

now i can understand how terrible it is to stay there despite of the nice environment.
there's practically no life in there.
routined lifestyle.
after eat, sleep. and eat and sleep again.
yeah but the response for our performance was pretty good!
shows how much they yearn for entertainment.

talked to some of the elderly there and showed a couple of rubberband tricks to them.
though i think they are not at all interested, well, but it did make them smile(:

got to catch up with jingru and suyi over dinner thereafter!
and my my, when i am with these two people, all the juicy stuff comes out!
man.
i don't know what to say.. ;)

celebrated rachel's birthday over lunch today at marina square's swensens.
spending time with friends is always such a joy!
and i was told i had a bad hair day today):
because i'm balding.
maybe it's just the hairstyle. hopefully.
i don't want to lose my hair! heh.
should go get a nice haircut soon! :P

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

lesson learnt.

came across The Purpose Driven Life book by Rick Warren this morning and decided to find some answers to certain concerns i have.
The first thing that caught my eye when i flipped the book to a random page was,
Humilty is not thinking less of youself but thinking of youself less.

what a good start and this is definitely an answer for any question you may have!

it's time for the world to slow down.
because we are slow learners.
the rushing will only cause disappointment and biterness.

i think i should stop expecting too much from people.
i have learnt my lesson.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

apples and berries.

my sister got an iphone today and i wasn't greening with envy because i was told that blackberry is a better gadget.
and it seems that my sister disagreed with this statement.
she said that blackberry is more suitable for high professionals and iphone is popular for its cool functions.
whatever it is, if you are planning to change your phone, do consider the nature of the product!

i was just thinking about the branding of phones these days.
what's with the whole fruit thing?
apple, berry... what's next?

=)

Saturday, November 14, 2009

gee. it hurts.

mummy brought me to the sinseh this morning to get my backpain problem treated.
and oh my, i so don't wanna go back there again!!!
it's extremely extremely painful!!!!
you can actually hear my bone crack! O.o
like seriously, even my mum who is sitting 3 metres away could hear the loud crack sound so clearly!

=( it's really awful.
and not only did the shifu cracked my right and left back bones. he cracked my neck and shoulder area too.
and gosh, for a moment, i thought my head is dropping off!

the shifu is really a nice and funny guy. fatherly too(:
and what an expert in cracking bones!
so while i was gasping in pain, crying out loud (really i was crying), i was actually laughing too.
i know, sounds funny but that was exactly what happened.

he kept talking so as to keep me distracted from what he's gonna do next, the cracking and twisting of my bones.
yes, and all happened so fast that i could hardly take a breath.
what a quick yet painful experience.

now that the stiffness in my shoulders is loosened, i feel better!
but shifu comically warned that for the next 2 days, my entire back is going to hurt alot.
well, side effect i guess.
after which, if the pain is gone, it means i've more or less recovered!
but if the pain persists, i've gotta go see a bone specialist or something to get an x-ray and proper treatment.
mann, i'd pray hard that it will really heal this time!

and i also got many strong advice on how to take care of my back from now on!
and judging by the stern look of my shifu and the many warnings of how serious the effects of back injuries are, really it's not a laughing matter.
and he told me that salonpas is for old people.
-_-
so i shall stop using that.

yup so people, remember to have a good posture at all times and prevent any falls from the back down.
i don't want you to end up like me.

tomorrow is sunday!
great, i shall just lay in bed and not make too many movements :)

i want to specially thank you guys who have been praying for my back!
i am truly grateful and i just can't wait for the day when i can stop feeling so sorry for myself.
of course, hopefully it's just a problem of my back vein and not the bone!
i will overcome it in any case!

through this, i am not weakened, in fact, i grew stronger in faith.
Thank God.

For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.
-2 Timothy 1:7-

Friday, November 13, 2009

friday the 13th.

nothing unlucky happened today. yet.
but i don't believe in luck anyway.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

a sling and a stone.

Have you heard of the story of David and Goliath?
i really really love this story so much!!!
it's such a true and amazing testimony of courage and faithfulness!

Goliath was an over nine feet tall giant, armed with the finest armor and full of snob that he will emerge as victory in the battle.
nobody dared to fight against him.
and i repeat, he is a giant! seemingly a powerful one!
and the natural reaction would be, oh no! let's run!

but david stood out from the rest.
he saw how everyone was afraid of the giant and said, "I will fight Goliath."
But King Saul said, "You are only a boy. How can you fight Goliath?"
"God will help me," said David.

So Saul gave David his armor and helmet and a sword but david wasn't used to those stuff as they were too heavy, so he returned them to Saul.
Instead, David chose five smooth stones from a stream!
took a sling in his hand and called to Goliath, "You come with a sword and a spear. But I come to you in the name of God. This battle is the Lord's."

The giant came closer to fight David but not giving in, he put a stone in his sling and shot right in Goliath's forehead and knocked him out!
David defeated the giant just by a sling and a stone!
but most importantly, he trusted God and remained faithful!

AMAZING isn't it!

this was exactly what happened today when i was having my oral presentation!
the Goliath in me said to me, "You're afraid. I am going to win you. You weak!"
all the discouraging words came upon me like a flood.
but God got hold of me.
i got reminded time and time again of this beautiful story of David!
and said to myself, "This battle is the Lord's."
repeatedly.
and peace overflowed.

fear was the Goliath.
worry was the Goliath.
anxiety was the Goliath.

i'm just thankful that i got my sling and five smooth stones well prepared today.
and i mean, smooth stones. not rough ones.
why did David pick smooth stones... won't rough stones be a better choice?

i was really confused about this too.
but i learnt that smooth stones were rough once.
but after going through many times of strong currents, rough stones are smoothen!

so i am sharing this because i really feel that no matter how big your Goliath is, a tiny puny peck of courage and faithfulness that is already in you (whether you've unleash it yet or not) will give you strength to press on! ;)

another consolation for today was the collection of overall results!
PROMOTED TO J2!
yeah but at that moment, i really don't know if i should laugh or cry.
my results really ain't good at all.
and i'm not sad, just not very happy. (there's a difference)
heard the little disappointment from mum's voice when i told her my results.
but i do feel her faith for me to do even better(:
so that's definitely a good-enough-comfort.
love you mummy =)

got a chance to share a little about the different kinds of sufferings with lim and long today.
and i will continue with you guys soon kay.
thanks for listening(:

later in the afternoon, rachel and i went to support a hockey match.
the girl's team and michelle!
pretty interesting game actually cause it's my first time to witness an actual hockey match.
but a friendly match nevertheless. so it wasn't that competitive i guess?

had a long day and sadly, my back can't stand the awful strain.
SALONPAS is the cure for now.
can't understand why my mind and body don't go in sync.
oh God, please let healing take place.
only You understand this suffering.

okay! i am off to cook maggi noodles!
for dinner!
haha at such a hour. 9pm.
well, at least for a 6.30pm dinner person like me.
i'm hungry.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

out and about

The Mind Cafe is a pretty good place to catch up with friends, have a getaway from the stress of life or to simply have a mind boggling time of boardgames!

had a great time with my class this afternoon!
and later for dinner at plaza singapura, pizza hut with our dearest econs teacher, mr tan!
mr tan's treat for dinner, oh you just don't know how thankful we were!
we love you!

celebrated shiyu and wenbin's birthday too!
HAPPY BLESSED 17th BIRTHDAY! :D

Monday, November 9, 2009


SHARED JOY IS A DOUBLE JOY;
SHARED SORROW IS HALF A SORROW.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

no more.

i had a pretty bad dream.
i remembered me crying out in my dream.
and screaming.
and i woke up realising that yes, i really did cry.
luckily, it was morning then. and nobody is at home.

that dream was OUCH.

Saturday, November 7, 2009


really, i just need rest.
i'd love to talk if you are willing to listen.
and i mean, willingly.

good night!

Friday, November 6, 2009

steadfast

God has just been so faithful.
so many happenings this week.
unexpected occurances and misunderstandings and everything.
i mean, it's obvious that life isn't always smooth sailing.
now that my ship left the habour and is heading off to the deep seas, storms and winds are just for sure.

i really am thankful.

mum told me a couple of days ago that she is happy that i have been exercising quite a bit lately in school.
she says it will help my aches and all recover faster!
then i was like really???
maybe it's not effective yet.
i feel more achy now. hahaha but definitely more healthy.
ok anyway, i'll just keep a positive outllook over my whole health issue.

i am so annoyed with my thoughts.
grant me peace oh dear lord.
maybe that's why people sleep when they are troubled.
it's the best time to lay back and just cast aside everything.

some day when you find that people judge you even before they understand you, you are right, you are normal!
there's a reason and purpose for everything i say or do, at least most of the things, it's really not to hurt you.
but if you think it's just a big mistake of me to say anything that may hurt you, i just wish you the best and i hope there wouldn't be regrets.


Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.
James 4:10 (NIV)

Only God understands me.
And He is all that matters.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

BRAVING THROUGH ODDS

my heart shook when i heard this song.

this song really speaks of my life now!!

you just have to listen to it!! all the way till the end.

Monday, November 2, 2009

HORRIFIED.
the movie is so horrifying.
it's horrible.
i feel so horrid.
horror movie, period.

Jennifer's Body.
oh gosh, i can't take it.
all the frightening scenes! eek.
i know like duh, it's a horror movie.
okay and all the intimate scenes! too many too many.
no wonder NC16.
and too many vulgarities! the f-word just comes out so naturally.
turns me off seriously.

well, i must say it's an experience.
but next time, comedies and romance are better choices(:

NO MORE CHINESE! :P

had a great time with hq and emelia after class outing today.
playing the guitar and singing songs in a cold and gloomy weather lifted our spirits i am sure!
and hannqian!! i want your shirt!! it's so comfy!!!

man. realised how much work there are for the holidays.
plus i gotta study for chem re-take):
no time to lose!
but temptations do arise, especially when you are overwhelmed with stuff to do.
just got to resist.

I am more than a conqueror through Christ who loves me!

Sunday, November 1, 2009

i am in love with the guitar.
never ever did i thought i would say this.
but yes, i love i love i love it!!!!

once you are in love with something, who cares about getting blisters on your fingers, or breaking a nail or strumming till your finger bleeds.
hah okay not that gruesome..but along this line ;)

yeah my point is, if anything is your passion, go for it! not halfway but all the way.
dreams are extremely important!
heard of the power of a dream?
it can change your life and the life of others! believe it or not.

though my dream is not to become some guitar rocker or superstar, but at least i know this is an interest i want to pursue and music is something that sparks my life!
life without it is boring.
unless you wanna be a boring person, start spicing your life up with some cool-dude-music of your own style(:

A-LEVEL.
CHINESE.
MONDAY.
08 00.
SCHOOL HALL.

STUDY.
STAY CLAM.
GIVE YOUR BEST.
FINISH IT.

as long as you follow the above, you'll be fine.
the last point is the most important!
FINISH THE RACE. AND FIGHT THE GOOD FIGHT.
all the best!