Have you ever felt so determined to help someone before? And you will go all the way just to see the person through the run. And yes, I am talking in literal.
Today, Odelia ran her 2.4km. And it was an honour to be able to run with her all the way. I knew she needed alot of encouragement and support for her to push herself on. She had one goal, and that is to pass the run. I was extremely determined to fulfill that wish of hers and by no means of consideration, I hesitated no more. I started planning for her pacing, noting down the way she runs and how she can improve. I had one goal, and that is to see her pass the run.
She ran, she kept running, and never stopped to walk. I was so encouraged by the spirit and attitude she carried throughout the run.
Yet, it wasn't her day. She didn't pass the run by a mere 8 seconds. As terrible as she felt after the run, knowing that she had to re-run again, I was feeling equally terrible. I thought, hey maybe I didn't do enough. As much as I tried to push her, I didn't want to force her. Then again, it's pointless to brood over it because I strongly believe she will succeed in her next run and I will be there again, to run with her.
When I was running, in my heart, I was hoping that somebody will know that I am doing my very best. I really didn't want to let anybody down, and I don't want to let myself down by not doing my best to help.
Today's incident reminded me of a couple of years ago back in my Secondary school days, I ran 2.4km with my friend, Esther as well. It was exactly the same picture. I was doing the talking throughout the run, just with an additional boost of Esther's favourite band music to keep her motivated (as she claims). Then I thought, wow I am doing it again. And I am thankful for such events in my life.
Sometimes I wonder, why do I push myself so hard, why do I run when my legs are giving way, why do I run when my back hurts badly, just why. And I guess, Love really do makes people go the distance to make someone happy. I love people, that's why I do seemingly silly things. But of course, I will nevertheless take good care of myself because I want to have the strength to take care of others. So, trust me, I really know my limits, but they don't make me limited :)
